Happy Independence Day! How appropriate to be writing this post on our Nation's birthday. This is the day our Nation declared its independence and so, it is also the day I declare my personal independence. I am no longer bound by the chains of pain and sadness! The last few days have been emotional and... Continue Reading →
God sent me a message from an angel!
It has been a bi-polar couple of days in my world and just when I think I'm about to lose it, God sent me a message from an angel! It's 4:03 am and I haven't been able to sleep again for the 2nd night in a row. Some interesting events have unfolded over the past couple of... Continue Reading →
Together We Are Strong!
It's so uncomfortable when someone tells me, "You are so strong". Really, what does that mean? Well, I know it's a compliment but it just feels so undeserved. The truth of the matter is I AM NOT STRONG. I can be fearful, weak, fragile, stupid, lonely, angry, and depressed at times. When trials come my way, I stress,... Continue Reading →
Honor…
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. ~ Proverbs 3:5-6 The dictionary provides several definitions for the word "Honor", but the one I am writing about today is: Honor ~ to regard or treat (someone) with admiration and respect How do we... Continue Reading →
Letting Go of the Lies
I find it truly mind-boggling how we hold onto the lies from our past. Somehow those lies get deeply embedded in our hearts and we would rather hold on to those than accept the truth about ourselves. It's more comfortable that way because it's what we know, I guess. Here are some of the lies I seem... Continue Reading →
Oh this sucks!
I will forever be codependent. There is no cure. It is not something I can take a pill for or watch my diet or exercise. The only way to keep it at bay, is to put into practice what I have learned over the years and know that tomorrow will be a better day. As codependents,... Continue Reading →
I’m FINE…are you?
My normal and usual response when someone asks, "How are you?" is to respond with, "I'm fine" or often times, "Great!". Sometimes it's the truth and sometimes it's not. When it's not, you can't always tell because I have become so good at masking my feeling. (I was going to use the phrase, "I have... Continue Reading →
Your Words Hold No Truth
So I decided to take a little vacation and head to "California's Country Music Capital"...Bakersfield. Yes, that is what Wikipedia says it is. Hmmm...My friend Julie described it as the "Armpit of California". I'm leaning more in her direction after my 5 day stay. I did have a nice time visiting my friend from high... Continue Reading →
Unusual Dream…What does it mean?
I had a dream last night that was just as weird as it could be. I kept waking up and as I drifted back to sleep, the same dream kept coming back. Usually I don't remember much about my dreams but on a few occasions there are some that have affected me so much that I... Continue Reading →
Love Is Letting Go
Today was another sad day of letting go of something so dear and precious to me and my children. Another opportunity to do the right thing and another chapter closed. Today my sweet Oreo went to "Doggie Heaven". We have had Oreo since she was 6 weeks old. An adorable Australian Shepherd, Chihuahua mix. She... Continue Reading →
What I Choose Today
My day has been much better today than it has been in a week. I have not cried once, though I did tear up a bit because I have to put one of my dear pets to sleep, but that's a story for another day. I still did not get much sleep but overall, I... Continue Reading →
Trusting that You will make all things right…
Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; And wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world As it is, not... Continue Reading →