I have been gone from the blogging world for so long. I had so many problems trying to move my blog to a new platform that I finally just gave up and moved it back to WordPress.com. I've changed the name and the url so now I have to go in and fix the links.... Continue Reading →
Did I really just do that? Yep, I did!
Every once in awhile, I do something really, really, I mean REALLY stupid and yep, today was one of those days. No, really, it's true. Remember the call to the hospital? Well, this was just as bad. I was actually sitting in my office (which is in the breakfast nook of my kitchen which faces... Continue Reading →
I’m Still Laughing!
There are times when I just have to stop and remember how badly I screwed my kids up with my codependent behaviors. You know the old saying, "Monkey see, monkey do". And then I realize that today I am in a place that I can model a healthier and more fulfilling lifestyle. I am blessed... Continue Reading →
I’m Not Getting Sucked In
I received a text message from my brother the other night. He let me know that he just got off the phone with my ex-boyfriend, M, and that M wanted my brother to give me his phone number. He explained to my brother that he was dying of cancer. I have friends that are still... Continue Reading →
The Struggle Was Real
I can't really say that life has been hectic lately because, well, it hasn't. There has been some stress, but as usual, it all dances around finances, nothing new. I did catch the flu that left me down and out for about two weeks, but I have since made a full recovery. So why haven't... Continue Reading →
It’s Not Better, It’s Different
If you’re anything like me, Christmas time can be so stressful. As a codependent and people-pleaser, I always want to do the best I can for those I love and it truly hurts my heart when I feel I have failed. No matter how much recovery I think I have, I still struggle with this... Continue Reading →
It’s Not Pride
I recently took a few online IQ tests just to see where I score since I have never really known what my IQ is. I won't even get started on what led me to do it...It was a long, winding journey in my head about pride. I took 4 tests because I wasn't sure the... Continue Reading →
Hope vs. Expectations vs. Reality
I had to give myself a reality check over the past couple of days and it has taken me some time to process it. It was a wake-up call to "hope vs. expectations" and it was disappointing. Somehow I have managed to bleed expectations into my hope. Years ago, someone called me "pathetically hopeful". I... Continue Reading →
I am at a loss…
Warning...Foul language ahead...read at your own risk. 🙂 Every now and then I just have to sit back and laugh at myself. I mean really laugh. For all the years of recovery I have and all the tools that are in my toolbox, I still mess up. It's just proof that I will always be... Continue Reading →
Another Day of Strait Up Rambling
There is something that is really bothering me lately. Every time I go to read a post in a codependency group of any kind, whether it be Facebook, a forum, another blog, etc., I am overwhelmed by the term "narcissist". Now I am by no means a mental health professional and certainly do not claim... Continue Reading →
Through the Revelation of a Dream
I had another weird dream the other night. It was truly bizarre so when I woke up, I looked up a few of the significant things I remembered on Dream Moods. I enjoy doing this because it really helps to give me some insight as to what is going on in my subconscious mind; apparently,... Continue Reading →
Busy Does Not Equal Healthy
I have joined a few groups for codependents on Facebook within the last week or so and I'm really not liking the vibe in them. LOL... Get a bunch of codependents together and all they want to do is fix everyone else. Truly, I understand the need for these support groups but sometimes the drama... Continue Reading →
