Yesterday, my best friend Lucy and I took a trip to San Francisco's Golden Gate Park to visit the Japanese Tea Gardens. I can't even begin to tell you about the wonderful adventures we had. We laughed so much and so hard, others probably thought we were drunk or on drugs...especially on the paddle boat!... Continue Reading →
Insignificant. Alone. Broken. Abandoned. Insecure. Afraid. Worthless. Crazy. Pathetic. Ugly. Unlovable. Stupid... These words, along with countless others, are how I use to feel about myself. They screamed in my head and lived in my heart. I believed them with every ounce of my being. It seemed that if I already believed these things then... Continue Reading →
This is a great quote from the movie, Bridemaids! Too many times I was stuck in looking at the problems and everything that was going wrong in my life. Other people were not doing what I needed them to do to feel safe, secure and whole. Other people hurt me and used me. Even things... Continue Reading →
The process of learning about myself, dealing with past hurts, forgiving others and accepting forgiveness, has been a long and sometimes hard road. There were many tears upon this journey and much stumbling. However, I had a choice: stay in the sickness, pain, chaos and ugliness or learn, grow and change. I obviously chose the... Continue Reading →
Before I get into part 2 of this story, I want to thank everyone that read part 1! Your comments, support and encouragement mean the world to me! They inspire me to keep moving forward; learning and growing each step of the way. So Thank You, Thank You! With that said, please know that, no,... Continue Reading →
In order to understand where I came from and why I started writing this blog, I feel it is time to expose myself and the ugliness of my past. In doing so, I hope this helps someone find the strength and courage to keep pushing forward on their journey and know in their hearts, a better life... Continue Reading →
I anticipate 2015 to be a really good year for me and those I love. I have that endless hope that things will get better, finances will improve, relationships will grow, and life will not be so turbulent. I know, I know...this is probably not the reality but a girl can hope, right? It doesn't... Continue Reading →
It's hard to believe how fast the year went by. Welcome 2015! As I sit here and think of all the things I want to accomplish in the coming new year, I can't help but reflect on this past year and the what I have accomplished and the continued growth I feel I have made.... Continue Reading →
I did something this morning. Something that made me uncomfortable and just a bit nervous. It wasn't easy but it needed to be done, for me, so I did it. I spoke my truth. Why is it so difficult for me to speak my truth? Melody Beattie's book, "Codependent No More", has 9 pages of... Continue Reading →
It's kind of weird having so much freedom and time that I sometimes find myself wondering what to do from here. I've always had to consider someone else in the scope of my plans, not that I had many, but on occasion, I did have a few. These days, I am free to do whatever... Continue Reading →
One of the most frustrating things for a recovering codependent is to watch someone, who knows nothing of codependency, dance the endless and exhausting dance. It doesn't matter how much you explain what is happening on the dance floor, because you are all too familiar with it, they still dance. Once again reminding me, that... Continue Reading →
I can't believe how strong I feel! I can't believe how good I feel! For the last several days, I have been inundated with opportunities to "dance"; one right after the other. I haven't felt the need to. I haven't allowed them to upset me to the point that I feel the uncontrollable need to lash back.... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 