Watching the Dance From Afar

One of the most frustrating things for a recovering codependent is to watch someone, who knows nothing of codependency, dance the endless and exhausting dance. It doesn't matter how much you explain what is happening on the dance floor, because you are all too familiar with it, they still dance. Once again reminding me, that... Continue Reading →

Tornado in the Valley of Change

Remember my last post, where I bragged about landing in the "Valley of Change"? Well, a tornado stuck the valley, full force, that very night. There was no warning; I never saw it coming. It hit so hard, I almost lost my sanity and peace of mind. Sleep did not come to me that night... Continue Reading →

Paranoia Triggered

I have never really struggled with paranoia much, at least not to the degree some people do, but I have had my moments. I'd like to share one of those moments with you, if for no other reason, it's kind of comical now. It is so funny how this paranoia is triggered and thankfully today,... Continue Reading →

You cannot take away my truth.

Years ago, in the pit of my codependency, before learning that the pain I was in was caused by me and my actions or reactions, I needed you to understand. I needed you to know of my pain and how you hurt me. I needed you to acknowledge what you did. I needed your apology. I... Continue Reading →

Letting Go of the Lies

I find it truly mind-boggling how we hold onto the lies from our past. Somehow those lies get deeply embedded in our hearts and we would rather hold on to those than accept the truth about ourselves. It's more comfortable that way because it's what we know, I guess. Here are some of the lies I seem... Continue Reading →

Your Words Hold No Truth

So I decided to take a little vacation and head to "California's Country Music Capital"...Bakersfield. Yes, that is what Wikipedia says it is. Hmmm...My friend Julie described it as the "Armpit of California". I'm leaning more in her direction after my 5 day stay. I did have a nice time visiting my friend from high... Continue Reading →

Love Is Letting Go

Today was another sad day of letting go of something so dear and precious to me and my children. Another opportunity to do the right thing and another chapter closed. Today my sweet Oreo went to "Doggie Heaven". We have had Oreo since she was 6 weeks old. An adorable Australian Shepherd, Chihuahua mix. She... Continue Reading →

Turning the Page

The last several months have been a pure roller coaster ride and I'm to the point I think I'm going to vomit. I need off and the only way to do that is guessed it, "Get Off". Easier said then done sometimes, I know. Another long relationship has ended and it was coming for awhile.... Continue Reading →

It Frickin Hurts!

It's funny, when I was doing the unhealthy things and the codependent behaviors I so often did, I was comfortable with the pain and disappointment. It's what I grew up with, it's what I knew. It was expected and understood to some extent. Does that make sense? Today, I had to do what was right and... Continue Reading →

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