I'm not feeling well today. Nothing new; I haven't felt well in a long time. I have a whole host of pains and other issues and it seems no one in the medical field is taking me seriously. I have pain like I've never had before. The pain in my legs when I'm sitting gets... Continue Reading →
I tried…
I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn't last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy. I'm back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me... Continue Reading →
Depressed and Overwhelmed
I've had a really bad couple of weeks but I think I'm on the upswing now. Depression was sucking the life out of me and everything, I mean everything, was overwhelming me. Monday was my first class of a 4 week series on diabetes education. I kept tearing up through the entire class. When the... Continue Reading →
A New Revelation
I had a mind-blowing revelation this past weekend. Forty years of wondering why I could not seem to connect with my father on any kind of meaningful level and I finally think I hit the nail on the head. It was truly eye-opening, yet I'm not sure what to do with it, or really if... Continue Reading →
Letting Go of Our Adult Children
I was recently asked by a very dear friend of mine to write something to the women who are struggling with letting go of their adult children. As a mother myself and a codependent by nature, I could completely relate to this topic. I by no means get it right in this area all the... Continue Reading →
Finding My Way Back…
For many, many years now, the holidays have been a bit difficult for me. At Easter time one year, I found out my (2nd) husband was having an affair. The following Christmas Eve, I found out he was thinking of going back to her. That 4th of July, I kicked him out. A few years... Continue Reading →
Living With An Attitude of Gratitude
Throughout the years, life has brought me many trials and challenges. Most I struggled with or failed at, which made my time in these seasons longer than was probably necessary. I can tell you with certainty that my attitude during these trials played a large part in the length of time I spent in the season... Continue Reading →
Regaining Perspective
I love my friends and really don't know where I would be today without them. However, sometimes I just wish I could hide from them all. When I sit back and think about it, and I certainly have the past two days, I realize that what I think is a problem with them is really... Continue Reading →
Letter to a Puke
This post expresses extremely foul language but it is the truth of where I am tonight - please do not read if it will offend you... I'm so angry tonight! It started off earlier today as shock and disbelief and as I rolled through the stages, once again, I have ended up here. I am... Continue Reading →
Be the safe person…not the Judge!
I had an interesting conversation last night with a friend of mine who seems to feel another friend we have in common (though I haven't seen her for a few years) is "stuck" in her marriage. He went on to tell me how he basically interrogates her to see if she will tell the truth... Continue Reading →
Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes
How many times have you heard the saying, "Nothing changes if nothing changes"? How about the definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result? Maybe you're like me, before I entered recovery, and have never heard these sayings before. Well, you have now so what are your thoughts? I... Continue Reading →
Having my day in court…VICTORY!
I woke up Wednesday feeling pretty at peace with myself and what was about to happen. It was finally the day to appear before the judge regarding the restraining order I had filed against my ex. I thought I had it all under control and this was going to be a breeze. It wasn't until... Continue Reading →