I tried…

I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn't last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy.  I'm back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me... Continue Reading →

Depressed and Overwhelmed

I've had a really bad couple of weeks but I think I'm on the upswing now. Depression was sucking the life out of me and everything, I mean everything, was overwhelming me. Monday was my first class of a 4 week series on diabetes education. I kept tearing up through the entire class. When the... Continue Reading →

A New Revelation

I had a mind-blowing revelation this past weekend. Forty years of wondering why I could not seem to connect with my father on any kind of meaningful level and I finally think I hit the nail on the head. It was truly eye-opening, yet I'm not sure what to do with it, or really if... Continue Reading →

Letting Go of Our Adult Children

I was recently asked by a very dear friend of mine to write something to the women who are struggling with letting go of their adult children. As a mother myself and a codependent by nature, I could completely relate to this topic. I by no means get it right in this area all the... Continue Reading →

Finding My Way Back…

For many, many years now, the holidays have been a bit difficult for me. At Easter time one year, I found out my (2nd) husband was having an affair. The following Christmas Eve, I found out he was thinking of going back to her. That 4th of July, I kicked him out. A few years... Continue Reading →

Living With An Attitude of Gratitude

Throughout the years, life has brought me many trials and challenges. Most I struggled with or failed at, which made my time in these seasons longer than was probably necessary. I can tell you with certainty that my attitude during these trials played a large part in the length of time I spent in the season... Continue Reading →

Regaining Perspective

I love my friends and really don't know where I would be today without them. However, sometimes I just wish I could hide from them all. When I sit back and think about it, and I certainly have the past two days, I realize that what I think is a problem with them is really... Continue Reading →

Letter to a Puke

This post expresses extremely foul language but it is the truth of where I am tonight - please do not read if it will offend you... I'm so angry tonight! It started off earlier today as shock and disbelief and as I rolled through the stages, once again, I have ended up here. I am... Continue Reading →

Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes

How many times have you heard the saying, "Nothing changes if nothing changes"? How about the definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result? Maybe you're like me, before I entered recovery, and have never heard these sayings before. Well, you have now so what are your thoughts? I... Continue Reading →

Having my day in court…VICTORY!

I woke up Wednesday feeling pretty at peace with myself and what was about to happen. It was finally the day to appear before the judge regarding the restraining order I had filed against my ex. I thought I had it all under control and this was going to be a breeze. It wasn't until... Continue Reading →

Watching the Dance From Afar

One of the most frustrating things for a recovering codependent is to watch someone, who knows nothing of codependency, dance the endless and exhausting dance. It doesn't matter how much you explain what is happening on the dance floor, because you are all too familiar with it, they still dance. Once again reminding me, that... Continue Reading →

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