How many times have you heard the saying, "Nothing changes if nothing changes"? How about the definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result? Maybe you're like me, before I entered recovery, and have never heard these sayings before. Well, you have now so what are your thoughts? I... Continue Reading →
I woke up Wednesday feeling pretty at peace with myself and what was about to happen. It was finally the day to appear before the judge regarding the restraining order I had filed against my ex. I thought I had it all under control and this was going to be a breeze. It wasn't until... Continue Reading →
One of the most frustrating things for a recovering codependent is to watch someone, who knows nothing of codependency, dance the endless and exhausting dance. It doesn't matter how much you explain what is happening on the dance floor, because you are all too familiar with it, they still dance. Once again reminding me, that... Continue Reading →
Remember my last post, where I bragged about landing in the "Valley of Change"? Well, a tornado stuck the valley, full force, that very night. There was no warning; I never saw it coming. It hit so hard, I almost lost my sanity and peace of mind. Sleep did not come to me that night... Continue Reading →
I have never really struggled with paranoia much, at least not to the degree some people do, but I have had my moments. I'd like to share one of those moments with you, if for no other reason, it's kind of comical now. It is so funny how this paranoia is triggered and thankfully today,... Continue Reading →
Years ago, in the pit of my codependency, before learning that the pain I was in was caused by me and my actions or reactions, I needed you to understand. I needed you to know of my pain and how you hurt me. I needed you to acknowledge what you did. I needed your apology. I... Continue Reading →
It has been a bi-polar couple of days in my world and just when I think I'm about to lose it, God sent me a message from an angel! It's 4:03 am and I haven't been able to sleep again for the 2nd night in a row. Some interesting events have unfolded over the past couple of... Continue Reading →
I find it truly mind-boggling how we hold onto the lies from our past. Somehow those lies get deeply embedded in our hearts and we would rather hold on to those than accept the truth about ourselves. It's more comfortable that way because it's what we know, I guess. Here are some of the lies I seem... Continue Reading →
So I decided to take a little vacation and head to "California's Country Music Capital"...Bakersfield. Yes, that is what Wikipedia says it is. Hmmm...My friend Julie described it as the "Armpit of California". I'm leaning more in her direction after my 5 day stay. I did have a nice time visiting my friend from high... Continue Reading →
Today was another sad day of letting go of something so dear and precious to me and my children. Another opportunity to do the right thing and another chapter closed. Today my sweet Oreo went to "Doggie Heaven". We have had Oreo since she was 6 weeks old. An adorable Australian Shepherd, Chihuahua mix. She... Continue Reading →
Serenity Prayer God grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; And wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world As it is, not... Continue Reading →
I tried to get out of bed today and it made me cry. I thought about eating something and it made me cry. I though about what to do today and it made me cry. I tried to reach out and it made me cry. I dropped ashes in my coffee and it made me cry.... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 