Sharing my journey of hope.
Today I have a special guest post... Let me introduce my little sister, Melissa. There is a 31-year age difference between my little sister and I, and up until a year and a half ago, we had no relationship. She grew up without me in her life, except for the every so often visit. Sadly, I... Continue Reading →
The one you kissed on New Year’s Eve. Well, let's be honest...I kissed them all on New Year's Eve. Right? Who hasn't kissed their significant other on this special night? However, I will tell you about the one that relates to my codependency. If I'm not mistaken, it was New Year's Eve 1989 (I could... Continue Reading →
The boy you swore you’d never leave Ah yes, the boy I swore I'd never leave...that was 43 years ago! I met D when I was 9 years old. He was my first "love". What an innocent time! I lived in Texas and he lived down the road from my best friend. I was always... Continue Reading →
I recently had a conversation with a friend of mine who, I feel, has lost her joy. I say this because I remember when I lost mine. I remember just how I felt, how I acted and where I ended up. Joy vs. Happiness Joy and happiness are wonderful feelings to experience, but are very... Continue Reading →
Knack, Kowtowing, Keelhauling, Knowing, Knee-jerk, Know I’m going to make this short and sweet. I had a knack (a tendency to do something) to kowtowing (act in an excessively subservient manner) knowing (done in full awareness or consciousness) that it wasn’t right or healthy for me and a knee jerk (automatic and unthinking) reaction to... Continue Reading →
Jackasses, Joyless, Jeopardy My mother uses the term jackass when she discusses the very few men she doesn’t like. It’s much nicer than the term(s) I use but since it falls in line with my “J” list, I will use it. Wink, wink So, let’s just start with the fact that my picker was broken.... Continue Reading →
Enabler, Excuses, Evasive Let me just start this with the saying, "You don't know what you don't know" and I didn't know. I didn't know what an enabler was. I didn't know that all my "helping" was actually "harming". I didn't know that trying to save someone from their toxic behaviors was feeding their need to... Continue Reading →
Denial, Delusional, Deceit, Debacle Oh good grief! When I started this little A-Z challenge I don't think I really thought it through well. I’m laughing at myself now because it’s only day 4 and who wants to admit these damn words? Delusional: having false or unrealistic beliefs or opinions - Yep, I had false and unrealistic beliefs of... Continue Reading →
Boundaries, Blame, Busy The first time I read the word "boundaries" in Melody Beattie's book, Codependent No More, I thought, "What the hell are boundaries?" The counselor I was seeing at that time recommended I read it so I did. Now, it's pretty sad that I had no clue what "setting boundaries" meant but what's even... Continue Reading →
This is a post that I actually wrote as a guest post for another blog in July 2014. The blog has since been taken down so I decided to post on the Diary of a Recovering Codependent. Enjoy! Have you ever felt you were doing everything right but in the process, you were going absolutely and utterly... Continue Reading →
I heard this song a few weeks ago while driving in the car with Lucy. I started laughing and told her that this song was about her! I know, I know...it's about me but deflecting was entertaining for a minute. I use to think I was Superwoman. Well, that's not quite the truth. I didn't... Continue Reading →
In order to understand where I came from and why I started writing this blog, I feel it is time to expose myself and the ugliness of my past. In doing so, I hope this helps someone find the strength and courage to keep pushing forward on their journey and know in their hearts, a better life... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 