Encouragement for the Codependent
Rebound, Reliable Rebound - Going from one relationship to the next right away to avoid the pain of a breakup. One way I dealt with my feeling of hurt and betrayal was to rebound to the next relationship. So basically, I didn’t deal with them. For some reason, I could not be alone. Having someone,... Continue Reading →
Quiet, Quest, Questions I was quiet about my quest My quest to find love My quest to find peace My quest to find happiness My quest to find acceptance Too quiet I shut out that still small voice I did not ask questions Questions that would guide me Questions that would protect me Questions that... Continue Reading →
Pusillanimous, Passive Aggressive I had an album when I was a teenager by the Rutles. I don’t remember where it came from but there was one song that always stuck with me, or should I say, one line from one song that always stuck with me; “You're so pusillanimous, oh yeah." I remember looking up... Continue Reading →
Obsession, Overwrought, Overwhelmed I had an obsession To love you Like I thought you needed to be loved I was overwrought With fear, guilt and shame When my love was not enough I was overwhelmed With my failure To love you like you needed to be loved I understand now To love me So I... Continue Reading →
I had a very busy day so I’m a little too exhausted to dig deep. So, here’s another short and sweet… Neediness, Numb, Negligence In my neediness (wanting or needing affection, attention, or reassurance, especially to an excessive degree) I was numb (emotionally unresponsive; indifferent) to the negligence (failure to take proper care in doing something) I... Continue Reading →
Manipulation, Minimize, Mask Do you realize that codependents are masters of manipulation? I had no idea! Let me tell you, learning that was like a blow to the gut. I did not like hearing that I was a manipulator (to control or play upon by artful, unfair, or insidious means especially to one's own advantage) but... Continue Reading →
Jackasses, Joyless, Jeopardy My mother uses the term jackass when she discusses the very few men she doesn’t like. It’s much nicer than the term(s) I use but since it falls in line with my “J” list, I will use it. Wink, wink So, let’s just start with the fact that my picker was broken.... Continue Reading →
Insecure, Individual, Isolation, Insanity Insecure - subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured It’s not pleasant to remember how terribly insecure I used to be. Leave me alone for 10 minutes and I thought my life would end. Walk out that door and I worried you would never come back. Have a bad... Continue Reading →
Fear, Failure, Feat Wow! This challenge has been much more difficult than I expected. It is causing me to look back specifically at each issue but is giving me reason to celebrate who and what I am today. It's a short one today so let's get started... I lived most of my life in fear.... Continue Reading →
Enabler, Excuses, Evasive Let me just start this with the saying, "You don't know what you don't know" and I didn't know. I didn't know what an enabler was. I didn't know that all my "helping" was actually "harming". I didn't know that trying to save someone from their toxic behaviors was feeding their need to... Continue Reading →
Denial, Delusional, Deceit, Debacle Oh good grief! When I started this little A-Z challenge I don't think I really thought it through well. I’m laughing at myself now because it’s only day 4 and who wants to admit these damn words? Delusional: having false or unrealistic beliefs or opinions - Yep, I had false and unrealistic beliefs of... Continue Reading →
Where did they come from? Why are they so powerful? What gives them power? There are many types of fears and some of them are quite valid but that is for another post. This post has to do with the silly fears developed in my younger years and are completely ridiculous for the woman I... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 