Encouragement for the Codependent
Insignificant. Alone. Broken. Abandoned. Insecure. Afraid. Worthless. Crazy. Pathetic. Ugly. Unlovable. Stupid... These words, along with countless others, are how I use to feel about myself. They screamed in my head and lived in my heart. I believed them with every ounce of my being. It seemed that if I already believed these things then... Continue Reading →
I have a little story to tell you about my total relapse into codependency last night. This blog is about the good, the bad and the ugly so I guess I better come clean. I wouldn't consider it quite "ugly" but it probably falls in the higher end of bad...but funny. Let me give you... Continue Reading →
Have I told you before how much I HATE confrontation? Some people don't care one way or the other and have no problem confronting someone or being confronted. Some people actually enjoy it and go out of their way to cause it. Me, I hate it! The old me would avoid it at ALL costs; my... Continue Reading →
This is a great quote from the movie, Bridemaids! Too many times I was stuck in looking at the problems and everything that was going wrong in my life. Other people were not doing what I needed them to do to feel safe, secure and whole. Other people hurt me and used me. Even things... Continue Reading →
I am so blessed and honored by those that read and follow my blog and the encouraging comments they have sent me! Today I was nominated to participate in the "3 Day Quote Challenge" by Freedom and look forward to the opportunity to share a few of my favorites with all of you. Please be sure... Continue Reading →
The process of learning about myself, dealing with past hurts, forgiving others and accepting forgiveness, has been a long and sometimes hard road. There were many tears upon this journey and much stumbling. However, I had a choice: stay in the sickness, pain, chaos and ugliness or learn, grow and change. I obviously chose the... Continue Reading →
When I first attended Celebrate Recovery, I was there to check out the program for Ricky. I didn't think I was the problem; he was the problem! A lady introduced herself to me (she is still a very dear friend) and I explained why I was there. She gave me some handouts and suggested I read them. That first night... Continue Reading →
This will be the last segment of The Ugliness of Who I Was... but the story is not over. There is a better story coming...I promise. The Ugliness of Who I Was…(Part 4) In late 1998, through a series of events, I began corresponding with a man in prison, Ricky. I had no intention of a... Continue Reading →
The next couple of parts to my story are going to be much harder to write about. They are the true "ugliness" of my story and the beginning of my spiral into much self-loathing, shame & despair...it is my truth and perception of my life. It was how I reacted to the rejection, pain and... Continue Reading →
Before I get into part 2 of this story, I want to thank everyone that read part 1! Your comments, support and encouragement mean the world to me! They inspire me to keep moving forward; learning and growing each step of the way. So Thank You, Thank You! With that said, please know that, no,... Continue Reading →
In order to understand where I came from and why I started writing this blog, I feel it is time to expose myself and the ugliness of my past. In doing so, I hope this helps someone find the strength and courage to keep pushing forward on their journey and know in their hearts, a better life... Continue Reading →
Well, I failed myself this weekend. Just when I think I've got it, I do something so stupid to prove to myself that I don't. Thank God I'm striving for progress and not perfection but I'm doing a pretty good job of beating myself up for it. This past Sunday I was able to visit... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 