Sharing my journey of hope.
Did you hear it? It was so quiet one would scarcely notice. The "swoosh" of the backslide. My backslide. Not even I heard it. I was just there. I missed all the warning signs that I'm sure were posted all along the way. Do you know why? I missed them because I was too damn... Continue Reading →
The angriest letter you never sent I have only written two angry letters in my life that I can recall. One was written just a few years ago on this blog. Technically, it was "never sent" but it was posted as an Open Letter to a Puke. I don't know that this person ever saw it... Continue Reading →
Your biggest fear about growing old I've never had any fears of growing old. I actually look forward to it. I want to see my grandchildren get married and I want to be around to hold and love on my great-grandchildren. There is so much to look forward to that I'm almost, dare I say,... Continue Reading →
The biggest lie you ever told Well it just sucks that this is the topic for the very first day. No warming up, no easing into it, just straight to the point from the get go. So I had to ponder about this one... a lot. I could tell you about the time I lied... Continue Reading →
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, (I am here but I will not be forever.) a time to plant and a time to uproot, (Sow within myself words of affirmation and dig out those negative tapes... Continue Reading →
If you’re anything like me, Christmas time can be so stressful. As a codependent and people-pleaser, I always want to do the best I can for those I love and it truly hurts my heart when I feel I have failed. No matter how much recovery I think I have, I still struggle with this... Continue Reading →
Warning...Foul language ahead...read at your own risk. 🙂 Every now and then I just have to sit back and laugh at myself. I mean really laugh. For all the years of recovery I have and all the tools that are in my toolbox, I still mess up. It's just proof that I will always be... Continue Reading →
I have joined a few groups for codependents on Facebook within the last week or so and I'm really not liking the vibe in them. LOL... Get a bunch of codependents together and all they want to do is fix everyone else. Truly, I understand the need for these support groups but sometimes the drama... Continue Reading →
It's actually empowering when I use the tools of my recovery and watch how things unfold. Last night I practiced "staying on my side of the street" and it was so easy and refreshing. I was expecting my boyfriend to come over but when we were texting, his texts were very terse and he said... Continue Reading →
Such a beautiful poem I had to share... So young; shy; quiet; her voice often lost on the wind. Reserved; withdrawn; lonely; her feelings often ignored. Broken; imperfect; defeated; her sense of self only an essence of what she could have been. Now, like a blooming flower, with the sunlight touching her soul; she will... Continue Reading →
I had a bit of a rough time yesterday evening. I had a conversation with a dear friend that left me angry and hurt. Not with my friend but with the gossip and lies that were being told about me and the lack of integrity a past client of has shown. (I will write about... Continue Reading →
Manipulation, Minimize, Mask Do you realize that codependents are masters of manipulation? I had no idea! Let me tell you, learning that was like a blow to the gut. I did not like hearing that I was a manipulator (to control or play upon by artful, unfair, or insidious means especially to one's own advantage) but... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 