It's been just over a year since I completed my A - Z Codependency challenge and once again, I need something new to motivate me. Life has been pretty peaceful and I find myself struggling to write about anything. So, I did some research looking for some kind of writing challenge and found one that... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – Z
Zaftig Well here we are, finally! I can’t believe I made it through the alphabet! I will have one last post tomorrow to wrap up this silly little A – Z challenge. I was trying to find some Z words that would be different from the normal everyday Z words we use and I came... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – X
Whew! This is challenge is almost over! I really struggled with this one! As I’m sure you already know, there are really not very many words beginning with the letter X. Well, there are only one and a half pages of X words out of 1342 in my Webster’s Dictionary so I had to get... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – U
Unworthy, Unhealthy, Unattainable, Unhinged I have spent most of my life feeling unworthy; unworthy of love, unworthy of happiness, unworthy of peace... My unhealthy thoughts and behaviors and a total lack of self-respect fueled this unworthiness. And because I was so unhealthy, I unconsciously perpetrated unattainable expectation on myself and others. I wanted to be... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – S
Secrets, Self-Sabotage Did you know that codependents keep secrets? Seriously, they do! Well, I did! Yep, they were deep, dark secrets that led to a whole lot of self-sabotage. Keeping those secrets helped to keep me down, locked in a prison in my own mind. Those secrets choked the life out of me. Other than... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – N
I had a very busy day so I’m a little too exhausted to dig deep. So, here’s another short and sweet… Neediness, Numb, Negligence In my neediness (wanting or needing affection, attention, or reassurance, especially to an excessive degree) I was numb (emotionally unresponsive; indifferent) to the negligence (failure to take proper care in doing something) I... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – I
Insecure, Individual, Isolation, Insanity Insecure - subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured It’s not pleasant to remember how terribly insecure I used to be. Leave me alone for 10 minutes and I thought my life would end. Walk out that door and I worried you would never come back. Have a bad... Continue Reading →
Where do you get your affirmation? Most of my life I looked for affirmation from others. I needed to hear their words of praise, encouragement, love... I NEEDED it. I would receive compliments or praise and I would feel an ever so brief fluttering of pride. Then I would start feeling they didn't really mean... Continue Reading →
Looking Forward to Vegas, Baby!
I'm leaving this evening to fly to Las Vegas for our family reunion and I am pretty excited about it. I have mentioned in the past that I am not really close to anyone in my very large family. I have never felt like I fit in and have always felt like a failure and... Continue Reading →
Where’s the Blessing?
The very first time I gave my testimony of recovery was to my Celebrate Recovery home group sometime in mid 2007. If you have read my story, you know that 2007 was not my best year. There was still so much turmoil going on in my life but I had made huge strides in my recovery... Continue Reading →
Your Recovery is Your Recovery
Something popped into my mind a little while ago and for some reason I can't get it out. So, I figured it was the perfect topic for a blog post. I think it's because I have so many friends struggling with issues, healing and recovery that I wish I could just make it all go... Continue Reading →
Are You Ready for a Challenge?
Insignificant. Alone. Broken. Abandoned. Insecure. Afraid. Worthless. Crazy. Pathetic. Ugly. Unlovable. Stupid... These words, along with countless others, are how I use to feel about myself. They screamed in my head and lived in my heart. I believed them with every ounce of my being. It seemed that if I already believed these things then... Continue Reading →