Zaftig Well here we are, finally! I can’t believe I made it through the alphabet! I will have one last post tomorrow to wrap up this silly little A – Z challenge. I was trying to find some Z words that would be different from the normal everyday Z words we use and I came... Continue Reading →
Yelling, Yielding, Yearning Your yelling and my yielding Was a dance that fed my yearning For peace For love For happiness Which did not come My yelling and your yawning Was a dance that fueled my yielding For peace For love For happiness Which I found without you
Whew! This is challenge is almost over! I really struggled with this one! As I’m sure you already know, there are really not very many words beginning with the letter X. Well, there are only one and a half pages of X words out of 1342 in my Webster’s Dictionary so I had to get... Continue Reading →
Unworthy, Unhealthy, Unattainable, Unhinged I have spent most of my life feeling unworthy; unworthy of love, unworthy of happiness, unworthy of peace... My unhealthy thoughts and behaviors and a total lack of self-respect fueled this unworthiness. And because I was so unhealthy, I unconsciously perpetrated unattainable expectation on myself and others. I wanted to be... Continue Reading →
Trust, Teased, Tiresome, Tired Trust - We are born with an innate ability to trust and as we grow, we develop a sense of who we can or cannot trust based on our life experiences. Somehow along the way, my trust sensor broke. I blame it on my lack of self-esteem from a very young... Continue Reading →
Secrets, Self-Sabotage Did you know that codependents keep secrets? Seriously, they do! Well, I did! Yep, they were deep, dark secrets that led to a whole lot of self-sabotage. Keeping those secrets helped to keep me down, locked in a prison in my own mind. Those secrets choked the life out of me. Other than... Continue Reading →
Rebound, Reliable Rebound - Going from one relationship to the next right away to avoid the pain of a breakup. One way I dealt with my feeling of hurt and betrayal was to rebound to the next relationship. So basically, I didn’t deal with them. For some reason, I could not be alone. Having someone,... Continue Reading →
Pusillanimous, Passive Aggressive I had an album when I was a teenager by the Rutles. I don’t remember where it came from but there was one song that always stuck with me, or should I say, one line from one song that always stuck with me; “You're so pusillanimous, oh yeah." I remember looking up... Continue Reading →
Manipulation, Minimize, Mask Do you realize that codependents are masters of manipulation? I had no idea! Let me tell you, learning that was like a blow to the gut. I did not like hearing that I was a manipulator (to control or play upon by artful, unfair, or insidious means especially to one's own advantage) but... Continue Reading →
Loathed, Lacked, Lost For me there is a great distinction between hate and loathe. I hate a lot of things and have even claimed to have hated some people from time to time (though I do not hang on to that burden long) but loathe is something all together different to me. Loathe is a... Continue Reading →
Knack, Kowtowing, Keelhauling, Knowing, Knee-jerk, Know I’m going to make this short and sweet. I had a knack (a tendency to do something) to kowtowing (act in an excessively subservient manner) knowing (done in full awareness or consciousness) that it wasn’t right or healthy for me and a knee jerk (automatic and unthinking) reaction to... Continue Reading →
Insecure, Individual, Isolation, Insanity Insecure - subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured It’s not pleasant to remember how terribly insecure I used to be. Leave me alone for 10 minutes and I thought my life would end. Walk out that door and I worried you would never come back. Have a bad... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 