Sharing my journey of hope.
Every once in awhile, I do something really, really, I mean REALLY stupid and yep, today was one of those days. No, really, it's true. Remember the call to the hospital? Well, this was just as bad. I was actually sitting in my office (which is in the breakfast nook of my kitchen which faces... Continue Reading →
I received a text message from my brother the other night. He let me know that he just got off the phone with my ex-boyfriend, M, and that M wanted my brother to give me his phone number. He explained to my brother that he was dying of cancer. I have friends that are still... Continue Reading →
I had to give myself a reality check over the past couple of days and it has taken me some time to process it. It was a wake-up call to "hope vs. expectations" and it was disappointing. Somehow I have managed to bleed expectations into my hope. Years ago, someone called me "pathetically hopeful". I... Continue Reading →
Warning...Foul language ahead...read at your own risk. 🙂 Every now and then I just have to sit back and laugh at myself. I mean really laugh. For all the years of recovery I have and all the tools that are in my toolbox, I still mess up. It's just proof that I will always be... Continue Reading →
It's actually empowering when I use the tools of my recovery and watch how things unfold. Last night I practiced "staying on my side of the street" and it was so easy and refreshing. I was expecting my boyfriend to come over but when we were texting, his texts were very terse and he said... Continue Reading →
A whole lot of V's In the beginning… I was a victim to the villains who vanquished my life. I was vulnerable to the vague validation I desperately valued to fill the void within my heart. I lived a vicarious life vexed with vainglorious attempts to validate you. In the end… I found value in... Continue Reading →
Where did they come from? Why are they so powerful? What gives them power? There are many types of fears and some of them are quite valid but that is for another post. This post has to do with the silly fears developed in my younger years and are completely ridiculous for the woman I... Continue Reading →
Do you let your codependency and people-pleasing issues get in the way of taking care of yourself and doing what it right for you or just right in general? Yeah, that would be me. I still catch myself getting stuck in these ruts. However, today, I know how to get out of them. Sometimes I... Continue Reading →
Don't you wish you could just get on the "recovery elevator", push a button and be where you want to be in no time? I'd go straight for the top...healing, wellness, wholeness, happiness… within seconds. But alas, there is no such elevator, no such pill, no such magic. There is just the journey of each... Continue Reading →
We’ve all heard of the “ripple effect”, haven’t we? Dictionary.com defines the ripple effect as “a spreading effect or series of consequences caused by a single action or event”. When I look back at my life, I can see so many instances where the ripple effect was in play. What I can also see now... Continue Reading →
I'm leaving this evening to fly to Las Vegas for our family reunion and I am pretty excited about it. I have mentioned in the past that I am not really close to anyone in my very large family. I have never felt like I fit in and have always felt like a failure and... Continue Reading →
I heard this song a few weeks ago while driving in the car with Lucy. I started laughing and told her that this song was about her! I know, I know...it's about me but deflecting was entertaining for a minute. I use to think I was Superwoman. Well, that's not quite the truth. I didn't... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 