Did you hear it? It was so quiet one would scarcely notice. The "swoosh" of the backslide. My backslide. Not even I heard it. I was just there. I missed all the warning signs that I'm sure were posted all along the way. Do you know why? I missed them because I was too damn... Continue Reading →
Hardest decision of my life!
My brother Rick, passed away unexpectedly on February 8, 2020. He was only 55 years old. Growing up, my brother hated me and I was terribly afraid of him. Needless to say we had a horrible relationship but our God is a God of restoration and He opened the doors for the healing and restoration... Continue Reading →
Past Me & Future Me
Today I have a special guest post... Let me introduce my little sister, Melissa. There is a 31-year age difference between my little sister and I, and up until a year and a half ago, we had no relationship. She grew up without me in her life, except for the every so often visit. Sadly, I... Continue Reading →
Inside Out Challenge – Day 4
The angriest letter you never sent I have only written two angry letters in my life that I can recall. One was written just a few years ago on this blog. Technically, it was "never sent" but it was posted as an Open Letter to a Puke. I don't know that this person ever saw it... Continue Reading →
I Am In Good Hands
I read the comment below today and thought, "Wow! Isn't that the truth?" Sometimes I feel like calling myself codependent means I am broken. I am not. As codependents we care very deeply for others. That is an EXCELLENT quality. We think of others first. That is a spiritual quality. In fact the world would... Continue Reading →
Planning For A Stressless Season
Well here we are...fall and I love the fall weather! However, fall also signifies the start of the holiday season; a season that brings about much stress and overwhelm. I use to love the holiday season. I enjoyed buying things for friends and family, getting together for large family dinners, attending parties, etc., but not... Continue Reading →
She Is Staying Off The Dance Floor
My best friend Lucy has a son who is an addict. He is 36 (I think) and has been in and out of jail for drugs and drug related crimes since he was a young teen. He even lived with me for about a year when he was getting his life together and attending school... Continue Reading →
“Everyone” Wants To Be Heard But “No one” Wants To Listen
It amazes me how fast we can get stuck in an unhealthy cycle of dysfunction. Life's circumstances and daily stresses can become overwhelming and we just want someone to listen as we work through the pain, emotions, challenges, etc, that each day brings. Unfortunately, because we all have these pains, emotions, challenges, etc, we get... Continue Reading →
Dad Has Left The Room!
It has been an eventful week! I flew to Las Vegas last Thursday for my uncle's 90th birthday party and had such a wonderful time! I stayed with my mom and cousin from Thursday through Monday and what a pleasant visit we had. It was so funny that at the party Saturday night, my mom... Continue Reading →
An Unexpected Invitation
On Monday I received an instant message on Facebook from my younger half-sister saying she would like to see me and have coffee or lunch the following day. My sister is 31 years younger than me and we have never really had any kind of relationship, so I was absolutely shocked. I responded that of... Continue Reading →
Looking Forward to Vegas, Baby!
I'm leaving this evening to fly to Las Vegas for our family reunion and I am pretty excited about it. I have mentioned in the past that I am not really close to anyone in my very large family. I have never felt like I fit in and have always felt like a failure and... Continue Reading →
The Ugliness of Who I Was…(part 1)
In order to understand where I came from and why I started writing this blog, I feel it is time to expose myself and the ugliness of my past. In doing so, I hope this helps someone find the strength and courage to keep pushing forward on their journey and know in their hearts, a better life... Continue Reading →