I have an issue. Well, in all honesty, it's probably number 1,642 on my list of issues but it is one that I need to figure out how to deal with QUICK before I end up in some looney bin or even worse, jail. I don't know exactly when it started but in the past... Continue Reading →
Inside Out Challenge – Day 4
The angriest letter you never sent I have only written two angry letters in my life that I can recall. One was written just a few years ago on this blog. Technically, it was "never sent" but it was posted as an Open Letter to a Puke. I don't know that this person ever saw it... Continue Reading →
I am at a loss…
Warning...Foul language ahead...read at your own risk. 🙂 Every now and then I just have to sit back and laugh at myself. I mean really laugh. For all the years of recovery I have and all the tools that are in my toolbox, I still mess up. It's just proof that I will always be... Continue Reading →
“Everyone” Wants To Be Heard But “No one” Wants To Listen
It amazes me how fast we can get stuck in an unhealthy cycle of dysfunction. Life's circumstances and daily stresses can become overwhelming and we just want someone to listen as we work through the pain, emotions, challenges, etc, that each day brings. Unfortunately, because we all have these pains, emotions, challenges, etc, we get... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – R
Rebound, Reliable Rebound - Going from one relationship to the next right away to avoid the pain of a breakup. One way I dealt with my feeling of hurt and betrayal was to rebound to the next relationship. So basically, I didn’t deal with them. For some reason, I could not be alone. Having someone,... Continue Reading →
My A – Z Codependency Challenge – A
I have been struggling with things to write about on my blog lately because, well, I'm an emotional writer. My inspiration is driven by my emotions and yep, that sucks. I want to write but just can't seem to figure out what to write about. You see, things are pretty stable and uneventful in my... Continue Reading →
Annoying…
Last week, my best friend, Lucy, and I decided to start doing aquatic exercises. We've been working out for about an hour to an hour and 10 minutes each day we go. Today Lucy wasn't feeling well so she didn't want to go. For a brief second I thought, "Well, if she's not going to go... Continue Reading →
I tried…
I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn't last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy. Â I'm back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me... Continue Reading →
Depressed and Overwhelmed
I've had a really bad couple of weeks but I think I'm on the upswing now. Depression was sucking the life out of me and everything, I mean everything, was overwhelming me. Monday was my first class of a 4 week series on diabetes education. I kept tearing up through the entire class. When the... Continue Reading →
Forks, Locks & A Whole Bunch of Irritation
I have been feeling a little under the weather lately. Tired, sore, irritable...so today, I need to take the opportunity to just rant and get it out of my system. As I have mentioned before, I rent my two extra bedrooms out to 3 people. For the most part, they have been pretty good roommates.... Continue Reading →
Confrontation & Consequences
Have I told you before how much I HATE confrontation? Some people don't care one way or the other and have no problem confronting someone or being confronted. Some people actually enjoy it and go out of their way to cause it. Me, I hate it! The old me would avoid it at ALL costs; my... Continue Reading →
The Ugliness of Who I Was…(Part 4)
This will be the last segment of The Ugliness of Who I Was... but the story is not over. There is a better story coming...I promise. The Ugliness of Who I Was…(Part 4) In late 1998, through a series of events, I began corresponding with a man in prison, Ricky. I had no intention of a... Continue Reading →