My day has been much better today than it has been in a week. I have not cried once, though I did tear up a bit because I have to put one of my dear pets to sleep, but that’s a story for another day. I still did not get much sleep but overall, I do feel better.
I was a little perturbed last night because someone, who is no longer really a part of my life, was supposed to come by yesterday and take one of the dogs to live with him. He had text me the day before and said he would be here. Then early yesterday afternoon, he called to give me some information I had requested and then promised he would call me later with some other information he wanted to share with me. Well, he never came by and of course, he never called.
When I woke up this morning, I had choice to make: I could text him again about the dog and the other information or I could just leave it alone. I chose to leave it alone and I have much peace about it. I know that if he was truly a person of integrity or even cared one little bit, he would follow through with his commitments. I also know that I do not need to chase him down and make him follow through. That is NOT my job. What is happening in his life is none of my business any longer. There is power and freedom in that knowledge.
As far as the dog is concerned, I will find him a good home. It’s that easy (not meaning finding him a home, but doing what I need to do in life). I want to do what is right, what is good, and what is healthy for me. I do not need to concern myself with others that are no longer a part of my life. I’m not saying that I am not sad. I’m not saying I don’t want to speak to him. I’m not saying I don’t miss him. What I am saying is that I choose not to wallow in the sadness and I choose not to obsess about him. How freeing is that?
These are a few things I want for my life and I am the only one who can give them to myself:
PEACE = Progressing Everyday And Changing Every Way
HOPE = Hang On! Peace Exists…
LIFE = Living in Fullness everyday
What do you want?