I'm not feeling well today. Nothing new; I haven't felt well in a long time. I have a whole host of pains and other issues and it seems no one in the medical field is taking me seriously. I have pain like I've never had before. The pain in my legs when I'm sitting gets... Continue Reading →
An Open Letter to a Friend
My Dear Friend, It seems that life has been harsh these past few months and it has taken a toll on you. I am truly saddened and heart-broken for what you are going through. Though I do not know the circumstances that brought you to this place or what the future holds, I just want... Continue Reading →
Hope Will Come
I have been reflecting a lot this week on one of my favorite promises from God, Jeremiah 29:11. “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." A few years ago I was thrown into... Continue Reading →
I tried…
I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn't last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy. I'm back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me... Continue Reading →
Depressed and Overwhelmed
I've had a really bad couple of weeks but I think I'm on the upswing now. Depression was sucking the life out of me and everything, I mean everything, was overwhelming me. Monday was my first class of a 4 week series on diabetes education. I kept tearing up through the entire class. When the... Continue Reading →
The Ugliness of Who I Was…(Part 4)
This will be the last segment of The Ugliness of Who I Was... but the story is not over. There is a better story coming...I promise. The Ugliness of Who I Was…(Part 4) In late 1998, through a series of events, I began corresponding with a man in prison, Ricky. I had no intention of a... Continue Reading →
The Ugliness of Who I Was…(Part 3)
The next couple of parts to my story are going to be much harder to write about. They are the true "ugliness" of my story and the beginning of my spiral into much self-loathing, shame & despair...it is my truth and perception of my life. It was how I reacted to the rejection, pain and... Continue Reading →
Codependency up in my face…
It's been a crazy few weeks and so far, I have survived. My codependency has been all up in my face, in all areas of my life. Ugh, I hate when that happens. The fact that I have been terribly sick this past week and I just can't find the joy in me for this holiday season,... Continue Reading →