I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn't last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy. I'm back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me... Continue Reading →
I've had a really bad couple of weeks but I think I'm on the upswing now. Depression was sucking the life out of me and everything, I mean everything, was overwhelming me. Monday was my first class of a 4 week series on diabetes education. I kept tearing up through the entire class. When the... Continue Reading →
I have been feeling a little under the weather lately. Tired, sore, irritable...so today, I need to take the opportunity to just rant and get it out of my system. As I have mentioned before, I rent my two extra bedrooms out to 3 people. For the most part, they have been pretty good roommates.... Continue Reading →
Something popped into my mind a little while ago and for some reason I can't get it out. So, I figured it was the perfect topic for a blog post. I think it's because I have so many friends struggling with issues, healing and recovery that I wish I could just make it all go... Continue Reading →
Yesterday I posted about terminating a client of mine and her email 28 days later asking me to reconsider. As soon as I read her email, I knew what my answer would be but I wanted to take some time to really think and pray if it was the right one. Here was my response and... Continue Reading →
A funny thing happened on the way to the office today...Nah, I just really wanted to say that, but something interesting did happen and it is giving me the opportunity to stretch myself and test myself in several areas. As always, a little history is needed to give you the full picture so please bear with me.... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, my best friend Lucy and I took a trip to San Francisco's Golden Gate Park to visit the Japanese Tea Gardens. I can't even begin to tell you about the wonderful adventures we had. We laughed so much and so hard, others probably thought we were drunk or on drugs...especially on the paddle boat!... Continue Reading →
I just realize this morning that I have been on my journey of codependent recovery for 10 years as of June! Oh my goodness, it doesn't feel like that long. Looking back, I see how far I've come and I am just overfilled with joy! I've learned so much in the past 10 years and... Continue Reading →
Insignificant. Alone. Broken. Abandoned. Insecure. Afraid. Worthless. Crazy. Pathetic. Ugly. Unlovable. Stupid... These words, along with countless others, are how I use to feel about myself. They screamed in my head and lived in my heart. I believed them with every ounce of my being. It seemed that if I already believed these things then... Continue Reading →
I have a little story to tell you about my total relapse into codependency last night. This blog is about the good, the bad and the ugly so I guess I better come clean. I wouldn't consider it quite "ugly" but it probably falls in the higher end of bad...but funny. Let me give you... Continue Reading →
Have I told you before how much I HATE confrontation? Some people don't care one way or the other and have no problem confronting someone or being confronted. Some people actually enjoy it and go out of their way to cause it. Me, I hate it! The old me would avoid it at ALL costs; my... Continue Reading →
This is a great quote from the movie, Bridemaids! Too many times I was stuck in looking at the problems and everything that was going wrong in my life. Other people were not doing what I needed them to do to feel safe, secure and whole. Other people hurt me and used me. Even things... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 