Sharing my journey of hope.
I recently had a conversation with a friend of mine who, I feel, has lost her joy. I say this because I remember when I lost mine. I remember just how I felt, how I acted and where I ended up. Joy vs. Happiness Joy and happiness are wonderful feelings to experience, but are very... Continue Reading →
Updated... I wrestled with myself a little last week... I received an email from Kindle Direct Publishing for my ex's father's account. At one point, a few years ago, I was helping him edit and self-publish his books. I kept telling him I was not a literary agent nor an editor but he wanted my... Continue Reading →
I had to give myself a reality check over the past couple of days and it has taken me some time to process it. It was a wake-up call to "hope vs. expectations" and it was disappointing. Somehow I have managed to bleed expectations into my hope. Years ago, someone called me "pathetically hopeful". I... Continue Reading →
Trust, Teased, Tiresome, Tired Trust - We are born with an innate ability to trust and as we grow, we develop a sense of who we can or cannot trust based on our life experiences. Somehow along the way, my trust sensor broke. I blame it on my lack of self-esteem from a very young... Continue Reading →
Last week, my best friend, Lucy, and I decided to start doing aquatic exercises. We've been working out for about an hour to an hour and 10 minutes each day we go. Today Lucy wasn't feeling well so she didn't want to go. For a brief second I thought, "Well, if she's not going to go... Continue Reading →
A funny thing happened on the way to the office today...Nah, I just really wanted to say that, but something interesting did happen and it is giving me the opportunity to stretch myself and test myself in several areas. As always, a little history is needed to give you the full picture so please bear with me.... Continue Reading →
Yesterday, my best friend Lucy and I took a trip to San Francisco's Golden Gate Park to visit the Japanese Tea Gardens. I can't even begin to tell you about the wonderful adventures we had. We laughed so much and so hard, others probably thought we were drunk or on drugs...especially on the paddle boat!... Continue Reading →
I am so blessed and honored by those that read and follow my blog and the encouraging comments they have sent me! Today I was nominated to participate in the "3 Day Quote Challenge" by Freedom and look forward to the opportunity to share a few of my favorites with all of you. Please be sure... Continue Reading →
When I first attended Celebrate Recovery, I was there to check out the program for Ricky. I didn't think I was the problem; he was the problem! A lady introduced herself to me (she is still a very dear friend) and I explained why I was there. She gave me some handouts and suggested I read them. That first night... Continue Reading →
The next couple of parts to my story are going to be much harder to write about. They are the true "ugliness" of my story and the beginning of my spiral into much self-loathing, shame & despair...it is my truth and perception of my life. It was how I reacted to the rejection, pain and... Continue Reading →
One of the most frustrating things for a recovering codependent is to watch someone, who knows nothing of codependency, dance the endless and exhausting dance. It doesn't matter how much you explain what is happening on the dance floor, because you are all too familiar with it, they still dance. Once again reminding me, that... Continue Reading →
I was reading through some post on other blogs and came across this one, Geographic Relocation and Codependency, which made me start thinking. I have heard many people say how much they hate this place (whatever place they live) and want to move and start over. It amazes me when someone says, "The people here suck!"... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 