Last week, my best friend, Lucy, and I decided to start doing aquatic exercises. We've been working out for about an hour to an hour and 10 minutes each day we go. Today Lucy wasn't feeling well so she didn't want to go. For a brief second I thought, "Well, if she's not going to go... Continue Reading →
Light the Way
I have been invited to share my testimony with a local Celebrate Recovery group and I am honored yet, a little fearful. It has been so long since I have shared my story in front of a group and of course, all those little voices started dancing in my head. "You're not good enough, what makes... Continue Reading →
Where’s the Blessing?
The very first time I gave my testimony of recovery was to my Celebrate Recovery home group sometime in mid 2007. If you have read my story, you know that 2007 was not my best year. There was still so much turmoil going on in my life but I had made huge strides in my recovery... Continue Reading →
12 Steps of Conquering Codependency – Step One
When we feel we are the ones doing everything right and then are presented with the unfathomable reality that we are screwed up, it is quite the reality check. Denial is our best friend but once we come to terms with this step, life changes and there comes a stronger and more realistic sense of... Continue Reading →
I tried…
I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn't last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy. I'm back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me... Continue Reading →
Depressed and Overwhelmed
I've had a really bad couple of weeks but I think I'm on the upswing now. Depression was sucking the life out of me and everything, I mean everything, was overwhelming me. Monday was my first class of a 4 week series on diabetes education. I kept tearing up through the entire class. When the... Continue Reading →
Ode to the fork…by Cora Sherlock
There are none in the kitchen. You never know how much you appreciate them until they are gone. Be blessed on your travels my dear long lost forks. Ode to the Fork
The Narcissist-Codependent Dance
I was stuck in this dance for many, many years but found the help I needed to get off and stay off the “dance floor”. Thank you Dr. Jenner for this post!
Among my patient group (and circle of friends), there are people who continually allow others to take advantage of them, continue to give and stay in very toxic relationships. They attempt to make themselves indispensable for their partners (and everyone else) and become the local and family martyr. They are the codependents who keep on giving. It is also very often the case that these people are either in or have been in a relationship with someone who has narcissist tendencies. In fact there are studies that suggest that they might even seek out such types.
There is a dance in codependency that involves the intimate relationship between codependents and narcissistic types. Codependents lack a healthy relationship with self. They are prone to put others first before their own needs. This is unhealthy.
Narcissists also have an unhealthy relationship with self. They put themselves above all else. They use others…
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Forks, Locks & A Whole Bunch of Irritation
I have been feeling a little under the weather lately. Tired, sore, irritable...so today, I need to take the opportunity to just rant and get it out of my system. As I have mentioned before, I rent my two extra bedrooms out to 3 people. For the most part, they have been pretty good roommates.... Continue Reading →
Personal Mental Illness Blogs Right to Your Own Brain
Your journey is your own. Please don’t ever let someone else tell you the road you should take!
The ability for people suffering from mental illness and psychological damage to be able to reveal their personal truth through blogging has been a great outlet for many people.
People who once had no one they felt they could speak honestly to, found this gift of the blogging world. They found that they were not alone in their suffering and even in their feelings of being alone in their suffering.
I believe that blogging about mental illness and trauma has been the one thing that has been a lifeline for many people.
When I hear about people getting comments about their posts being too dark and that they should only write about certain aspects of their particular mental illness, it upsets me.
Everyone is an individual. Each person experiences their mental suffering in a unique way. Two people with the same diagnosis are not necessarily going to experience it the…
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I Am No Longer Invisible
My dear friend Lucy shared this song with me last week and I wanted to share it with you. I struggled for most of my life with feeling invisible and also at wanting to be invisible. I am no longer invisible... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiUqgL5urWc
Your Recovery is Your Recovery
Something popped into my mind a little while ago and for some reason I can't get it out. So, I figured it was the perfect topic for a blog post. I think it's because I have so many friends struggling with issues, healing and recovery that I wish I could just make it all go... Continue Reading →
