Sharing my journey of hope.
Did you hear it? It was so quiet one would scarcely notice. The "swoosh" of the backslide. My backslide. Not even I heard it. I was just there. I missed all the warning signs that I'm sure were posted all along the way. Do you know why? I missed them because I was too damn... Continue Reading →
It has been almost four years since I wrote this post and it just amazes me how different my life is these days. Change can be hard and certainly scary but change is hope. Don't give up! How many times have you heard the saying, “Nothing changes if nothing changes”? How about the definition of... Continue Reading →
I recently had a conversation with a friend of mine who, I feel, has lost her joy. I say this because I remember when I lost mine. I remember just how I felt, how I acted and where I ended up. Joy vs. Happiness Joy and happiness are wonderful feelings to experience, but are very... Continue Reading →
I can't really say that life has been hectic lately because, well, it hasn't. There has been some stress, but as usual, it all dances around finances, nothing new. I did catch the flu that left me down and out for about two weeks, but I have since made a full recovery. So why haven't... Continue Reading →
I had to give myself a reality check over the past couple of days and it has taken me some time to process it. It was a wake-up call to "hope vs. expectations" and it was disappointing. Somehow I have managed to bleed expectations into my hope. Years ago, someone called me "pathetically hopeful". I... Continue Reading →
It's actually empowering when I use the tools of my recovery and watch how things unfold. Last night I practiced "staying on my side of the street" and it was so easy and refreshing. I was expecting my boyfriend to come over but when we were texting, his texts were very terse and he said... Continue Reading →
My best friend Lucy has a son who is an addict. He is 36 (I think) and has been in and out of jail for drugs and drug related crimes since he was a young teen. He even lived with me for about a year when he was getting his life together and attending school... Continue Reading →
I'm heading out for a little adventure to the city of Las Vegas this week. One of my uncles is celebrating his 90th birthday and his son is throwing him a huge party at the Main Street Social Club. I originally RSVP'd to my cousin that I was coming but then at the beginning of the... Continue Reading →
Where did they come from? Why are they so powerful? What gives them power? There are many types of fears and some of them are quite valid but that is for another post. This post has to do with the silly fears developed in my younger years and are completely ridiculous for the woman I... Continue Reading →
I consider myself a pretty mild-mannered, easy-going, good-natured person, but on occasion something will rub me the wrong way and I just become ridiculously ungracious and irritated. The very sad part is that it doesn’t have to be anything serious or big; the smallest infraction of stupidity can sometimes send me over the edge of... Continue Reading →
Do you let your codependency and people-pleasing issues get in the way of taking care of yourself and doing what it right for you or just right in general? Yeah, that would be me. I still catch myself getting stuck in these ruts. However, today, I know how to get out of them. Sometimes I... Continue Reading →
I am so excited to announce that not only have I finally finished my 1st book, I have also created a journal for codependents and they will be published withing the next couple of weeks! Journey of a Codependent Discovering the Beauty of Who I Am This is the story of my life as a... Continue Reading →
Journey On Strong 