I tried…

I was hoping I was on the upswing but that didn’t last long. I was right back in my room that evening, feeling overwhelmed and weepy.  I’m back to feeling like crap and crying once again in a stupid diabetes education class. Just doing a meal planning exercise, with calorie and carb counting, overwhelmed me and brought me to tears. Damn it!

When I left the class today, I sat in my car and pulled out the card the nurse practitioner gave me last week for Behavioral Health. I know it’s time as I have been here before. I called and was told my wait would be 5 minutes to talk to someone, for their 15 minute intake interview. I waited and waited. Ten minutes later I hung up.

I went and picked up my new meds and when I got home, I called again. This time the receptionist who answered the phone asked me a couple of questions and then told me that they are booking out at the end of the year. “Really? I can’t get in to talk to someone until the end of the year?” She said, “Yes”. I asked her, “what’s the point?” and hung up.

Yep, this is just the way I want to continue to feel for the next 3 – 4 months. No rush guys. Don’t worry about me. I’ll be FINE! I just really don’t have the energy to figure this out but then again, I really have no other options.

So, putting one foot in front of the other and will see where it leads.

Bless you all.